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today was the 1st day of winter. it was supposedly the shortest day of the year or something like that. or maybe i'm making things up.
i had fun today. i got out of the house. i went to Ashley's and Krystal was there and we watched My Girl. Then Sevim came over to do some work on her Garbage book. Then we made alphabet pasta and Veronika came over. Then we watched music videos and played the Sims 2. Then Veronika went home. Then Krystal went home. Then we went to Seven 11 and dropped Leigh ann home. Then we played "pool" at Maggi's. lol. Then when we got to Ashleys complex i got my first formal driving lesson. Ashley and Sevim pushed Sevim's car and i steered it around Ashley's complex. "Brake slowly Brooke" lol. i dont know how to drive properly. i think i was in the middle of the street or something. i'm such a dork. Thank you Sevim for trusting me in your car. then we lounged in Ashley's guest room. yeah and i just got home. i had fun. i'm glad i got out of the house.
yesterday i was so bored that i almost went insane and attempted to take the car out and drive somewhere...i didnt even get out of the driveway. the car i was going to take out is really old and has no brakes so...not a good idea. maybe it was covered up in our driveway for a reason. lol. i'm so stupid. and i attempted to make pancakes and they were..interesting. so yeah i called my brother and we hung out at FIU and barnes and noble and i ate fruit salad with him and his girlfriend. yeah so i've been out of the house two days in a row. i know that doesnt sound like alot but it is for me because i rarely go out and get out of the house. it was good for me. hopefully i'll do stuff tomorrow instead of staying home. we'll see. yeah.
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince hits bookstores July 16, 2005! OMG! thank you Veronika for trying to help me figure out the riddles on the website. i eventually found the answers to them on some site. and thank you Laura for emailing me. yeah. lol. i'm out.
Mischief Managed!
Nox!
Brooklyn
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wow i have no life.
i decided to put this background for no reason. to poke fun at myself. i dont know. i am home alone again. maybe i'll go walking somewhere. the freedom is great. :) i want it to be christmas already so i can see my family! whoop! i think i'm getting sick. i think i have a cold and it sucks. i have to go and walk Houston (my doggie) so yeah let me go and do that because he's gonna poop everywhere...u didnt need to hear that did you? okay i'm really gonna go and stop babbling.
brooklyn in da house.
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me and laura are going through the same thing. we are the "third wheels." at least i'm not alone. at least i'm not the only one that is never invited to anything. your the greatest laura!
i think i'm getting sick. not good when i have to sing for seussical.
watched harry potter again today. it never gets old.
i havent' done one thing this winter break. poo.
life sucks.
my high school years have sucked so far. if i'm ever interviewed on "the coolest years" in the future i wouldn't have anything to talk about.
my laptop is officially insane, and is going through menopause.
i love gertrude mcfuzz. i wish i could sing like her.
when i look at my brother and his friends it makes me sad. he's had most of the same friends since kindergarden. i dont have that. i dont have a close friend that is always there for me that i've known for a looong time. after while when i make friends we eventually drift apart and stop talking to each other all together. i guess what i'm saying is that i dont have a main group of friends that i share all my secrets with and that i'm always hanging out with, and it would be nice to have that. i look around me a school and i see all these tight knit groups of friends, and then i look at myself and i'm all by my lonesome self. its sad. it makes me depressed. w/e. i think i'm just being childish now. high school is almost over and all these problems will go away and i wont be worrying about them when i go off to college. all this high school crap will soon be over and i'll be able to start all over at college.
at home with my family i feel like i have no freedom. and i have too many houses and my family is all scattered and we are never always together and it sucks. its hard when your parents are divorced and they hate each other, and one of your brother's lives in New Jersey and the other lives at college and you rarely hear from him, and your younger sister lives with your dad whom you never see either. i feel so isolated from my family and friends. and christmas time is a time that your supposed to be spending with family and friends. bullshit. all bullshit. this is the loneliest time of year. i'm gonna go and get some sleep so i dont get up late tomorrow and waste half of my day of doing nothing and seeing no one.
brooke
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was a bum today.
woke up at 2 in the afternoon.
ate.
watched harry potter 3. (call me jess if u still want to watch it! do u need some medication? u wanting to watch harry potter? are u feeling alright?)
and love actually (again)
and Monster.
exercised for about 2 seconds. my legs are a lil sore from the dance revolutions thingy. i was a maniac last night. i suck at that game. i can't even dance without it.
saw my cousins vivian and serena who i havent seen in a loooong time. it was nice seeing them. then again i havent seen alot of my family in a long time. :(
bought the seussical soundtrack today. gertrude's songs are kinda hard. okay not kinda. they ARE hard. Like the song "All for you"....kinda challenging. good luck to me. i dont have the actor's voice so i'll have to do my own gertrude. yeah. this play is really fun though. i love the characters. i love gertrude. she's adorable. and i love horton. lol. what a coincedence. so does gertrude. i'm already in character! and i love the who's. yeah. "A person's a person no matter how small." i think i'm obsessed now. just a little bit.
i'm out.
brooklyn.
i need some ♥in
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i had a really fun day today. i was Santa today and i gave out my pressies. :)
i fell asleep in Spanish Class and in English. lol. it was funny. i run in my sleep when i fall asleep in school...its like i'm running somewhere. or i drool all over my classwork.
the drama party was cool.
the oliver hoover show was so cute. there was the lady locking herself out of the dressing room, there was me searcing for hot dogs, and oh yeah kim spitting on aileens pants.LMAO! LMAO! :)
the oliver hoover people gave us mcdonalds bucks and we wasted no time in spending those! rey drove me, kim, and albert to mickey d's and aileen on her scooter. kenny reacted to rey's hair. and rey faked cried because there is too much salt in the fries. thanks to kenny. lol. i had a really fun day. yes i did. i got a sex pistols poster and a harry potter messenger bag, and yesterday i got a harry potter calendar. whoop! yeah i'm done. this is yet another pointless entry. i love it. ice cream party tomorrow in enviormental science. whoop. i'm celebrating even though ice cream= mr hankies. lol.
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Hi my name is Gertrude McFuzz. :)
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hi i'm in AP environmental science right now. me and laura finished our work early. :)
i am officially an upper classmen. I love my ring!
its freezing outside.
i still feel a little sad...but its okay
seussical callbacks were cool. the dance was really fun, but i think i bombed the singing portion. ahhh i hate that song!! the acting part wasn't too terrifying.
i have to wrap pressies for friends. i didnt buy that many presents this year. all my monies went to the rock on my finger. i'm sorry if i didnt buy for some of you.
i have a new appreciation for my family. I love them. I've been really rude to them lately and i suck for that. just because i have personal problems it doesnt mean i should take it out on them.
i really need some lovin. someone to cuddle with, with all this cold weather. yeah.
i cant wait for the cast list to be posted. its only 10: 44! i have to wait until 2:30. i wouldnt mind playing the tree that gertrude eats the gumball thingys from. lol.
yeah thats it from here. cant wait for christmas and i love you all. this was a pointless entry. lol.
Brooklyn (in the house!)
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i wish i could just feel comfortable being myself enough to be myself around people.
when people call me "cute" or when i say something people tend to look at me weird, and it makes me feel like i'm not taken seriously as a person. it hurts alot.
i need to learn to talk louder, when i say stuff i feel like i'm not heard.
i hate seeing couples in the hallways. it makes me feel like crap.
i hate mirrors.
i'm the opposite of my older brother. he's popular and well-liked and he's got a special someone in his life. things i dont have.
i hate high school.
i like how my tears feel running down my face...
i'm not going to put anymore effort into trying to be liked or getting close to people. its a waste of time.
i dont trust anyone. since the incident with my screen name. even if it wasnt someone i know, people are assholes, and they shouldnt say mean things to people that are of great importance to me. if its someone i know and i find out...
i feel trapped.
i like avoiding people.
i need to learn to get over people.
sometimes i like to be left alone.
i wish i didnt care what people thought.
i really really wish that i could love myself and feel confident. when i act all stupid and clueless its just a coverup, because i feel the real me is not good enough to be liked by anyone. the real me will start to come out if i allow it too.
Brooke
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howdy,
today was an okay day. environmental science was kinda cool today, looked through the microscope at water samples me and laura took from our ecosystems in a soda bottle. sounds weird but it was really cool. we found things swimming around in it.
we home right after school, had alot of homework to do. i'm still not done with all of it. i'm such a procrastinator. thats a title i need to lose.
watched love actually today. really opened up my eyes and made me realize what i'm missing in my life. kind of made me sad, and i cried for about 2 seconds. literally 2 seconds. lol. theres a sense of lacking in life.
school sucks. i cant wait until winter break. i am going to savor every moment i have away from that building. i really dread going there everyday. its such a struggle getting up in the morning knowing that i have to go there. this weekend is going by super slow, i could have sworn today was wednesday. and that tomorrow was thursday. dammit i hate it when that happens. yeah so thats about it. not much to report on my dumb life. yeah. one of these days i'm going to stop caring and just let loose. one day i'm just going to crack, something is going to click in my brain and it will happen. i will come out of my shell and just let loose. yeah. lemme go now.
♥ Brooklyn
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just finished decorating our christmas tree. pratically did the whole thing myself. i could'nt leave it half done. i'm the kind of person that once i start something i have to finish it. but its finished now and its kinda perty. lol. at lit up and stuff. i still can't believe its december. then january. then february. then march. and in march is a very special day. i turn 17. yay! this year has gone by fast. and its amazing how last christmas i was saying how slow this year was going to go by and here i am looking back at that already christmas again.
we performed today at districts. the first ones to perform. honestly the show was a bit smoother at ftcs and there was more energy there. maybe because there was more pressure this time around. we did awesome to say the least. i was very proud of everyone. the show kept rolling despite some mishaps and we pulled through like we always do. :) the other shows, some were good and some were just a repeat of what i had already seen at ftc's. tomorrow is the hialeah show. for those of you that watched it u know why i'm mentioning it. *gouges eyes* i'll prolly end up watching it again anyways. today was fun playing red rover and tag and red light, green light, and attempting cartwheels and wrestling and being tickled to death by kim. lol. i HATE being tickled. i dont find it funny, but i just have to laugh because it tickles but its not funny. i dont know its weird. cant wait till tomorrow at the awards ceremony and stuff and cant wait to see ferguson high school again. that school is beautiful in my opinion. i think so anyways. yup. thats it from here.
aileen....i hope u took like 12 showers...LMAO!
Lots of love,
Brooklyn (in the house)
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hallo,
the spotlight is a bitch...it makes a weird beeping sounds and it steams. and u have to fan it. and it doesnt like me. lol.
i'm going to stop. i'm going to stop trying to please everyone. it doesnt get me anywhere. i try and get on the good side of people and it doesnt work. i try to get close to everyone. but its impossible.
whoever said that these are the best years of your life...lied. these are the most painful years of my life so far. my teenage, high school years. trying to fit in with everyone. trying not to grow up to fast, but then growing into the person that i'm to become. trying to meet my parents standards, and to get acknowledged by them, trying to be noticed by them. here i am trying to figure out who i am. trying to stay in a happy mood for more than a couple of minutes. putting on this face in front of your friends, pretending everything is okay when it really isnt. i really should stop doing that. but thats who i'm known as. i'm known as being happy, giddy, cute, and always laughing. well the reality is that its all a cover up. to try and steer not only everyone else, but myself from identifying my problems. i'm a coward and i need to over come my fears. i need to grow up. i need to acquire confidence. i need to. thats all i hear from myself. all the things that i need to do to better myself but never being successful. i'm tired of working hard in school and never getting praised for it. i'm tired of giving and giving and never feeling good about it or accomplished.
the little theatre, i have very recently discovered, is a place where i feel that i HAVE to go to. its lost its excitement. and i've lost my passion for drama. the spark that i had last year and in 9th grade is gone. i hope that spark starts to glow again soon. i dont want to give up acting or drama. i want to feel a part of the family. i find myself more annoyed and irritated there then happy. but being on stage is a feeling unlike anything i've ever experienced. the rush. thats the only thing that hasnt lost its spark. being on stage, performing in front of a huge audience is just...i cant explain it. when i'm on stage i want to capture that moment forever. thats the only thing keeping me there. sad, but true. i'll just stay there to be act on stage. everything else, everyone forming their own little groups now and me feeling like a loser not belonging to any one of them and feeling like i dont have any true friends is depressing. and no matter what anybody says, "oh but i'm your friend." i have to actually believe that they are my friend or friends. i'm stupid. and this isnt to anyone person. it just these feelings i've been having. maybe i'm just PMSing. i dont know. i confuse myself sometimes. or maybe i'm just experiencing my confusing awkward teenage years. i look at past photos of myself and its scary how much i've grown and how my thoughts have changed since then. i hope i'm not changing too much and steering away from my true self. the only problem is figuring out who my "true self" is.
♥brooke
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I solemnly swear that i am up to no good.
so today i went to bayside with my auntie rene, uncle les, and my sister Gabby. It was fun. i got a new watch since my monkey one stopped working. the watch i got is a little kid watch..a finding nemo one...its so cute though. i also got a sex pistols shirt. i almost wet myself when i saw it. lol. j/k. we looked around the shops and stuff and we went on a boat and saw star island and saw all the rich ppl's houses. it was a beautiful day. the wind was just right and there was just the right amount of sunlight and it was great. :) the metrorail is the devil. the signs tell you where one stop is and when u get on the metromover to go to that stop u find out that your on the wrong damn train. maybe that or we're just stupid and we cant follow signs. the second one sounds right. when we got back i ate thanksgiving leftovers and watched harry potter. i've watched it everyday since tuesday. its AWESOME. Daniel is so HOT. lol. people are now admitting to me that they think he's hot in this movie and i'm like "hands off! i liked him first!" or "see! nobody listens to me"....<~~~ i'm such a girl. blah. my grandpa is seriously freaked out and thinks i should seek professional help for my harry potter obsession. he thinks i've been brainwashed or something. lol. who knows maybe i have. but hp is the best.
thanksgiving is great at my house. we dont have turkey. lol. we have lamb, honey baked ham, and chicken. no turkey. i can't tell u the last time i had turkey on thanksgiving. how can u have thanksgiving without a turkey?!? its like christmas with no presents! my family is weird. they dont want to follow the american tradition of having turkey on thanksgiving. so they go all british and make lamb. *yum* i think thats all i have to say. yeah. okay. that was my day. and my thanksgiving. maybe i'll do my homework tomorrow.
Love Brooke.
Mischief Managed.
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Two words: HARRY POTTER! the dvd came yesterday. yup. awesomeness. it made me so happy and i havent been happy in a long time and the dvd brightened my day. :) but i didnt get to go to the killers concert. poo. it was sold out.
i'm a clingy person...and thats a problem. i need to learn how to get over things..get over people. thats a problem i need to work on. i need to learn how to move on. i need to stop clinging to people. i really do.
i want to do something that nobody would expect me to do. something spontanous and just not be myself. maybe i'll get noticed that way. maybe i'll be seen as a somebody. maybe.
ftc's was fun. but i still was unsuccessful on finding a new person while i was there. oh well.
(getting hit on by Gabe doesnt count...he's weird) lol..jessica told me to stay away from him. lol i love u jess.
life is tiering and boring. i want something new to happen. i wake up everyday and its the same bullshit. same crap. everyday just repeats. i feel like i'm in the sequel for groundhog day. everyday goes by and i still haven't found my person. my special person. oh well. why would anyone want to be with me. i suck.
i dont feel so good. i'm gonna go watch harry potter. daniel radcliffe makes everything better. I love Jessica and Ashley. thank u guys for pushing me to do you know what at ftc's. its didn't make any difference but thanks anyways. cosmic connection forever.
"forget about the boy"
"gimme gimme (that thing called love)"
those songs are on the soundtrack of my life. yeah. okay.
love Bee.
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Wow do i need some Lovin'...:( "I need your lovin' like the sunshine." thats why i put the song lyrics up there. because i really do need some lovin' ♥♥♥♥♥
thats the only lovin i'm getting around here. *sniffles*
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Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
It will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Change your heart
Look around you
Change your heart
Will astound you
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
I need your lovin'
Like the sunshine
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
Everybody's gotta learn sometime
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I felt pretty today. it was weird, but nice. :)
My back is burned.
I'm a lazy old sod...did nothing but watch tv..did homework in between. didnt finish all of it. whoops.
i think i gained about 10 pounds today. ate non stop.
saw my mom today. first time in almost a month. i need to see my dad. haven't seen him in a while.
i have back problems. bad posture i mean. yeah i realized that today.
yeah that was pretty much my sunday. slept, ate, hw, watched tv...
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I've forgotten how to be happy..truly happy. I haven't been feeling like myself lately. i am hungry for love. I want to cry on someone's shoulder. I want a special person to cuddle with. The whole world is paired off and i'm the odd one out...thats how i feel anyway. I need some LOVING! I am so desperate for someone. I don't want to be disgusted with my reflection anymore. I wake up every morning hoping that this day will be better than the last...but it never is. I dont want to be unhappy anymore. My insides feel empty. My heart is shattered and its falling apart. I hate myself. I really do. What is wrong with me? Okay the point of this entry is not to get you all to feel sorry for me. Cause thats not what i need. I dont need anyone feeling sorry for me. Not that anyone ever feels sorry for me. I need to start commuticating more. I need to vent to people. I've kept everything in. I dont even know if anyone has noticed that i've been acting differently lately. The reason is that I am tired of being alone. Everyone else has their special someone except me. "Cause somebody told me that you had a BOYFRIEND who looked like a girlfriend..." LOL. me and ally belting our lungs in frustration. music helps. music gets me through my problems. My cd player is my best friend. it really is. Geez, i have been alone toooo long. I think i need to get laid. LOL. or not. w/e. i dont care. i just want someone. and thats the bottom line to my sadness. i hate seeing couples making out in the halls, and its not even out of disgust anymore...its more of i want to do that too. :( w/e i'll be my own boyfriend. lol. thats weird brooke. and now i'm talking to myself so no one is going to want to talk to me. now i'm just talking nonsense. okay i should go. i'm taking up too much of your time. if you got this far in the entry...thanks for caring about my fucking life. i love you. *gets teary* I dont have anyone to tell me that they love me. :( okay lemme me go now.
♥Brooklyn
*disregard this entry. lol. this was just to vent. just dont listen to me okay?? ok
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i was anti-social today.
me and ally made a secretaries honor today. and we got depressed while listening to music.
me and josh have similar music interests.
my brother is running for homecoming king at FIU...sorry i just find that so hilarious LOL
tanya is playing tricks on me (tanya is not a person)...forget it i dont want to get into detail. LOL
my thighs are still sore...i blame it on the juggling.
i want to do something wild to my hair.
my cheeks are permanently blushed
i should stop biting my nails
i'll never learn how to juggle.
wow i can act pretty stupid sometimes.
gonzo has so much musical talent. :)
wifeswap is kinda addicting
nothing much else to say. life is pretty blah right now.
so yeah...ready for ftc's and harry potter dvd. peace out homies
lots of love, brooklyn
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Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince
Book 6
Chapter 2: Spinner's End
Chapter 6: Draco's Detour
Chapter 14: Felix Felicis
Those are the names of 3 of the chapters for book 6. still no release date yet. :( but i was able to uncover those titles at jkrowling.com. great site.
okay i'm done.
love,
Mrs. Radcliffe...or Mrs. Harry Potter
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